I loved my time away it was so relaxing, and I really enjoyed visiting with my friends and their awesome family!! We did a great deal of fun and exciting activities, I got experience so many things and enrich my life. I will never forget the kindness I was shown.

Then I returned home to discover my reality. I certainly did not  get the reception I hoped for. We have   gone through so much, with each other that it is not always a pleasant experience. I feel as though there is some resentment we both share for one another.  I am at a loss as what to do next.

I suppose the smart thing to do is plan a visit with my therapist as soon as possible. I do wish however, that he would go with me to a marriage counselor, but he feels it is not necessary. This is unfortunate, but it is his choice and I respect that.

Moving right along... I was so inspired by my visit to the museums in St. Louis. I saw such incredible works of art, everything from fifteenth century Spanish ceiling tiles to works by Winslow Homer and Renoir. It made me want to paint right then and there. Such beauty, and creativity.

I'm very thankful for all that I have and the friends that love and support me with every decision I make. I grateful to be alive and to have such wonderful people around me everyday. I'm glad to be alive, it may not be the life I had imagined, but it is my life and IT SURE AS HELL AIN'T BORING!!!