I have about had it with this health care system. When will our government understand when they decide to make ignorant, and ill informed decisions that "we the people" have our health jeopardized? These haphazard decisions put our lives at risk. Everything from serious test being denied to life saving medications such as insulin persciptions needing repeated approvals. It is a constant exercises in futility. I for one have had enough.

 We have voted people into offices and positions of power that have promised to help, and lied to our collective faces. Why is it so hard for them to understand that their constant bickering and non bipartisanship is costing our lives literally. People are dying, because of this health care system failure. There are constant stories of people falling through the cracks and not getting the help that they so desperately need.

This idea of having people being forced to get insurance only served to make the poor and the ill even more so. This is just another way for insurance companies to continue lining their pockets at our expense. I am very supportive of wanting and needing change, but it doesn't take a a genius to see that this is not the working.

 I wish that for one moment that a congressman., our President, or any of our representatives could experience a life altering  decision of whether  to pay a for electricity, water or medicine.  I just don't get why it so hard for people to care about one another. Why do we not see the bigger picture, has greed and the need to constantly get more and more from others become what we strive for?

If we cared more about each other perhaps health care wouldn't such a issue. Common sense and knowing right from wrong shouldn't be so rare. We know the current status is not working. Let's change it. remove all the government red tape make things easier, quit overcomplicated everything. I f we go to the Dr. and says we need a test or a persciption lets just do it, do not make it necessary to get several approvals to say the same damn thing. If someone needs a kidney transplant don't pay for dialysis forever and not a transplant that is cheaper and healthier in the long run. If we know that it is broken why doesn't our government?

When Seth Rogan approached congress the other day and one by one  members began to leave, all but two. Why can't they hear us? Stay listen, learn. Isn't' that what we elected you to do??

I went to my first therapy session last Friday. My psychologist and I seemed to have a good rapport, which made me more at ease with the therapy session. She said I appeared to be suffering from clinical depression, and possibly some survivors guilt from the transplant. This is going to be another difficult journey for me to endure, but one I  must take. I have come to realize that I need help to move forward.

I feel disconnected from my life. It has changed so much in such a short time, that I no longer recognize myself, nor can I fix it. I have in previous situations always been able to pick myself up and ''shake it off "so to speak. I feel broken and fragile these days, and overwhelmed with emotions.
Please understand that I'm very grateful for the gift of a lifesaving transplant. I just wasn't mentally prepared for the changes that were in store for me.

I really thought after transplant I was going to be brand new and unstoppable. It has made me feel better physically, though I still can't do some of the things I miss doing. I don't know really how to put into words how all this has changed me. I just feel lost and confused scared and unsure of what I should do next.

 I really feel like a piece of snow in a snow globe that keeps getting shook up. Floating in a glass bubble never knowing where I'm  going to land.

I'm really hoping to get through this funk and find my purpose and most of all peace.

I haven't been blogging for a bit because of my eye issue. It is beginning to clear up a bit, so I'm able to type a little better. I have been having a some depression since the transplant although I probably had it all along. Whatever the reason I have decided after speaking to my doctor that this is bit more than just a medication issue. My mother suffered from bipolar disorder, and possibly schizophrenia, severe depression. I just don't want to go down the rabbit hole. Trying to stay sane and not get down all the time has been daunting to say the least. I'm staying positive and realizing it's OK to ask for help.  This is a turning point for the better. I wish my husband would also go. We have experienced so many issues over the years which have taken its toll on our marriage, he doesn't see problem. That in itself is a problem for me!! Hello I'm trying to work everything out.

I received some terrific news today. I went to get my pathology report from the oral surgeon today, and he said there was no more cancer. All three sample were benign. I can't tell you what a relief it is not to have cancer. The first sample indicated dysplasia, which is pre cancerous, the second was a malmalenoma, and third sample turned out to be keratosis, which just some scar tissue. THANK GOD!! I'm over the moon with this good news.

I would like to thank all my family and friends that prayed and supported me through my little rough patch. I couldn't have done without everyone's support!

POSITIVE THOUGHTS YIELD POSITIVE RESULTS!!!!

Stay on a positive path, pray, and don't be afraid to take a helping hand. Positivity feeds the mind, body, and spirit. It is a essential part of the healing process, and I think one of the most important.

Morning all, hope everyone is doing fine.

Spoke to my Dad today, and he is  trying to get his daily meds through Medicare. To delve into this you need to be aware of a a few things. First, and most importantly he is a lung cancer survivor and a diabetic. Second: he is  currently taking medications to maintain his breathing and diabetes. These meds are a necessity and maintain his current health.

He is currently on Medicare for his coverage. They changed his carrier to another. No notice, no time to adjust, just bam done! How is this possible? Now the new carrier decided that one of his insulin meds is not covered, and none of his breathing meds either. He must now gets his doctors office to prove he actually needs this required medication. Really? The system is broken here. Your going to interrupt someones care because of ignorance about medications. These are not policy decisions here this is our lives. Quit playing Russian rolluet, with our lives and use some damn common sense.

This is not the first time I witnessed this. The Medicaid system did the same exact thing to my mother while she was battling breast cancer. They actually suspended her chemotherapy treatment because she needed to go to a general prationer to say she had actual cancer, even though she was seeing and being treated by a oncologist. It's absolute insanity. And it needs to change!!

Transformed by Transplant: Thanking God and my donor for my life!

Transformed by Transplant: Thanking God and my donor for my life!: Thanking God and my donor for my life!